Saturday, August 30, 2008

Sick People AKA Why we need God

I hardly pay attention to the news. I should continue not to. People are sick and demented. A lady, from where I don't remember, was recently convicted for MICROWAVING her child. Yes, you read that right. I had to re-read the article myself. SICK SICK SICK. It said she was fighting with her boyfriend over the child or something to that extent.
This and a conversation I had at some point in life with a friend over their many significant others whether relationships or random dating has made me think about how much we really do need God to be the center of our lives. How unhappy and sick was that mother that killed her child because of her need to be with her boyfriend and was willing to get rid of her own flesh and blood to do so. You could subsitute boyfriend with money, power, anything almost. If we're not placing God at the center, than bad things happen.
We really do not need other human beings to make us happy. We need God to make us "happy" and the rest will fall into place. I'm not saying that if you're a Christian you will be loved by everyone, but I believe that if we follow God and place him in the center of our lives, he will lead us to a place where we will have support from other Christians. No one, no thing can ever fill that void. I look at celebrities and see all the crud they do and I do think, boy do they have a Jesus shaped hole in their hearts. It's true! Yes, that sounds Sunday school-ish, but it is true. Why do you think that God wrote that we were to have no other gods before Him? It is because he is the only one that can fill that Jesus shaped hole. I look at Britney Spears when she is on the tv and the media is tearing her apart and I feel sooooo sorry for her. She is such a mess. She needs someone to come into her life and help her turn her life to God. I have friends in my own life who need to stop filling the emptiness with things other than God. It is hard to tell people that they have a Jesus shaped hole in their hearts sometimes, but it is TRUE.
Why do we place other things before God? Well, for one, we're big sinners. And living in a sinful world just helps us keep going with that sinfulness in our own lives. It is so much easier to place things in front of God (so we think) than to stop, pray and read about God. Sinning can be fun. It is hard to be good. I watch my son do naughty things like touching the trash can or other things he isn't supposed to do and he enjoys doing those things. (Gross, yes).
I'm kinda loosing my train of thought, but it all comes down to the fact that we need to be Christ centered in our lives. Only Christ can fill us. Only Christ can make us happy. Only Christ can make us feel like a real person. Only Christ can make us clean in a dirty world. Only Christ can save us. I could go on. You get the point.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

The Word is NO!


(Knox and his cousin, Mathis, playing together yesterday)
We are getting deeper into the jungle known as TODDLERHOOD! All the parenting articles and books say that you shouldn't say "no" all the time, but instead say "we don't do that" or "that's not a good idea." But when you're child is going after the electical sockets for the millionth time, creativity ends and the NOs! begin. Knox is definately getting a little personality of his own that thinks for himself. His little tantrums right now are quite hilarious. He yells and stomps his feet while standing in place. It's quite amusing. He has wound up on the floor occasionally in a real fit of passion, but thankfully, they are short lived.

On the other hand, having a toddler is tons of fun. He mimicks talking on a cell phone with our cell phones, the tv remote, his baby moniter, and most recently a calculator. He presses buttons and then jabbers and laughs with the object up to his ear. It's quite amusing. Thankfully he's only managed to call Darren the few times I accidently forgot to lock the buttons on my phone. That is the handiest invention ever. I put it on ring, lock the buttons and let him play.

He's one of the most amusing people I know.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Good, Bad and the Ugly

I have decided to compile some lists with the new "issue" in my life instead of letting it disrupt my life, I'm making fun of it!!!

Top 10 Reasons Having a Sluggish Thyroid is Good

10. You don't feel guilty about a messy house
9. CHANGED MY MIND ABOUT THIS ONE - People say bless you alot since your thyroid annoys your allergies and you sneeze all day long (If one more person says, wow that was a lot of sneezes, I may be tempted to slug them. I sneeze a lot, get over it)
8. When you loose your train of thought, you can blame it on being lost in your "mental fog"
7. Hmmmmm...forgot this one....
6. You really did forget to do the laundry!
5. You get to know the ins and outs of changing your password online and can do it in 5 sec.
4. You have an excuse to sleep a lot
3. I forget this one too....sigh....
2. It's a scorching 98 degrees outside and you think it's a nice, cool day
1. You can be irritated at someone as long as you finish with "It's my thyroid's fault. It makes me irritated."

Top 10 Reasons Why Having a Sluggish Thyroid is BAD

10. I have so many passwords that I can't remember any of the changes I've had to made because I forgot the old ones
9. My thoughts get lost in my mental fog
8. My hair keeps clogging the shower drain
7. I have to clean my hairbrush out a lot which I absolutely hate doing
6. I have to wake up 30-60min before I eat breakfast to take my happy thyroid pill
5. Winter will be chilly
4. Blood tests!!!!!!!! AGHHHHHHHHHHH
3. Your legs look like you've been attacked by something because they're all bruised
2. Nothing gets done
1. Your thoughts are lost in your head a lot...oh I already did this one...oops! See what I mean?

The Ugly

Okay by now you've probably gotten the idea. lol. So, if I've said "I forgot" or something to that likeness a lot lately, now you know why. If I can't seem to get my mental and physical clutter under control, now you know why. If you've called me and I've been sleeping, now you know why. Hopefully my little happy pill will make me better soon. If not, well, I guess we'll just deal with it. I like taking naps anyhow!

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Thomas

Well, if any of you have kept up with my ramblings you know about Thomas and his cancer. Thomas passed away on Thursday. I was really, really, upset and sad when I read on his mother's blog on Friday that his fight was over. It makes me so sad just to think about it. I know his struggle is over and he's at peace, etc. but it's still a hard thing to swallow and think about.
This year has been full of children dying it seems. Maybe I'm just more sensitive to it because I now have a child, but honestly, these past 12 months have worn me out. Sydney, Allie, and now Thomas. Sigh.
I hate the fact that there is sin in the world and that is what causes these awful things to happen to these babies. I don't know what else to say. What do you say when faced with all this? Yes I realize God is in control, but sometimes it seems that evil is, even though it's not, because of all the awful things that happen in the world, and not even in the world, things that impact those that we care about.
I think the hard thing for me is that the Bible says all things work for the good of those who love God. I do have a hard time seeing that there is a good to these babies dying. Yes, I know people have come to Christ through Sydney's illness, but as a selfish mommy, I don't think I'd want my child to die to let others live. Yes, that is awful of me as a Christian to say, but it's the honest mommy heart truth. Mary went through that, but at least Jesus wasn't a baby when he died. And then she did get to see him 3 days later. These families that have lost their babies won't see their children for years and years. Yes, when they're reunited someday in heaven it won't seem like it's been ages since they last saw eachother, but those of us who live in real time (everyone) it's still a long ways away. We age. They don't. We go through turmoil, happy times, sad times, inbetween times without that loved one.
I think being a parent is the hardest job ever just because you love someone so much that even thinking about anything remotely bad happening to them gives you a big old stomach ache. I guess you just have to take one day at a time and live in the moment and enjoy it all.

Friday, August 1, 2008

Don't Forget Your Child?!?!?!

This is from the Dallas Morning News. It is a news article about parents forgetting their children in the car -

A number that's been growing, advocates say, since the early 90s, when safety groups started urging parents to put their car seats in the back because kids were being killed by the airbags during crashes.
Since then, advocates say airbag deaths have plummeted but kids dying of heat exposure in cars jumped ten-fold, to about three-dozen a year.
"Everybody goes on autopilot and forgets there may be a sleeping child in the backseat," said Melissa Bordes.
Her group, Kids and Cars, is pushing for automakers to install sensors to warn parents about children left in backseats.
"You have a sensor for your lights on, you have a sensor for so many different things, that are not life-saving. I think a life comes first," she said.

All I have to say is WHAT THE !*$*? How in the WORLD DO YOU FORGET YOUR CHILD IN THE CAR? If you're too busy to remember you have a child in the car, then maybe you shouldn't have a child! Uh duh. I had a child when I went into the car, listened to some Veggie Tales. Now I'm at the market...hmmm where'd my child go? Hmmm Oh no! They're in the car! Honestly! DUH! If you're too busy, get unbusy! There was a report of a father leaving his child in the car when he went to work because he forgot to drop the child off at day care. Hmmm another DUH. What didn't you do this morning that you do every morning?!?
It's so tragic that people are soooooo freaking busy with their own lives that they can't remember that their child is in the car! We are too busy and self absorbed in this country. Try putting someone else before your needs for once. Okay, so you hate everyone. How about your child's needs? Hopefully you don't hate them. If you do, I'd think about having another one first.
Another child died recently whose parents thought all their children had gotten out of the car, but their 14 MONTH OLD hadn't. They unpacked the car and then realized he/she was still in there. Ummm last time I checked a 14month old can't get out of the car by themselves, so it was your job, the PARENT, to remember that they were in there and to remove them! If you think your 8 year old is going to do the parenting and getting their sibling out of the car, think again! You're the parent, you make sure your child doesn't swelter to death.
While I'm on child neglect, another thing that drives me crazy is parents who don't buckle their children in car seats! I saw a van full of children today, most who should have been in carseats tumble out of the van and I didn't see any car seats. It is SO UNSAFE. Or children who are too big for carseats but don't buckle up. I saw a little boy, about 7, standing up in the car the other day. His father and passenger in the front were buckeled in. Umm good for them, but umm your child will still fly out the window! Newton's Law always applies "An object in motion will remain in motion unless and equal and opposite force acts against it." In this case, boy will still be in motion until something stops him, windshield, concrete. People don't realize how unsafe they are! If you don't want to buckle your child in, your child who you will mourn over for the rest of your life if they're killed because you didn't do something so simple as putting them in a carseat, then maybe you shouldn't have children either!
I just know too many people lately who have lost or are loosing their children to disease and tragic, freak accidents that couldn't be avoided and it makes me sad that other parents are literally playing russian roulette with their children.
Okay. I think I'm done ranting for one afternoon! I have to go wash dishes now.