I was playing in Knox's ball pit with him this evening (yes he has his own ball pit! so fun!) and I was thinking how much fun I was having. Granted we weren't really doing much, I was just burying him and tossing balls around with him, but I was happy. I couldn't see wanting to do anything else at that moment but enjoy playing with my little boy.
I also realized that I'm most happy when I'm either with Darren and/or Knox. Nothing makes my day more lately than when Knox and I have fun together. Sure I sometimes do miss teaching and the excitement that it brought, but I wouldn't trade being with Knox during the days for any job in the world. It perplexes me the people who do chose work over being at home all day. Yes I know there are those who have to work, I have a friend from college whose circumstances have caused her family to have to make changes in order to continue to eat, and I don't mean people like her. What can you do if not working means your family doesn't have basic necessities? I'm more talking about chosing not to be at home. I know people will give lots of excuses, but to me, I couldn't pick work over my child. I love being at home with him. Yes, there are days where he's cranky and I'd rather be doing my own thing, but those days don't overshadow the fun we have together. On cranky days, we take extra walks, go to Target, call a friend, anything for a diversion. On other days, we just play and take our time going places and doing things. We don't have to rush through breakfast or anything else. We just take our time and enjoy life together. I'm definately one who likes to do many things all the time, but sitting in Knox's ball pit today was one of the most enjoyable times ever.
